In an effort to appear like a uniter (I'm guessing), Gary Alexander (R-Kettering, OH) reached across the aisle and appointed me, Carrie Curtner (D-Miami Twp., OH) to the post. I was Mr. Alexander's Ray LaHood (President Obama's republican Secretary of Transportation). The confirmation process was much less of a headache than what you're used to hearing about. I think my mom maybe had to sign a permission slip. A fellow democrat, she was happy to oblige. So, from July 1992 through June 1993 I served as Harold Schnell Elementary School's safety patrol captain. I took over the position from an avowed Mormon. The the exception of the fact that the entire school only had about 3 black kids enrolled, Harold Schnell was a pretty progressive place in the early 90s.
My uniform was a blindingly bright, highly reflective, orange plastic harnessy-sash thing (or a not-quite-as-bright giant yellow poncho if it was raining). I was armed with a flag the same color as my harnessy-sash thing which was affixed to the end of a yard long, 1-inch-diameter dowel rod.
Though it didn't come up during my interview for the post, I think on some level I believed that my atheism would make me a better captain. My firm conviction that there would be no power higher than myself intervening should a first-grader walking home dart into oncoming traffic gave me the feeling of (dare I say godlike) omnipotence that all power-starved-dictators need to posses in order to keep their people safe (under control/completely dependent upon them). I'm not saying that my inclinations toward control-freakism are caused by my disbelief in god. I'm just saying it's a little easier to not feel like a dick for being a control freak if you believe the buck stops with you anyway. Margaret Atwood would be better at explaining what I'm trying to say, but I don't know if she ever used her position of power and influence as safety patrol captain to try and convert people away from Christianity, so you're stuck with me for this blog post anyway.
I was raised as one of those people who only go to church on on Easter. I don't know if the once a year on Easter thing was an attempt on my father's part to affirm his Christian faith or if it was just that he wanted to make it crystal clear that he wasn't Jewish. I mean, as holidays go, it doesn't get much less Jewish than Easter. We'll save how wonderfully open minded and accepting of people not like himself my father is for another post. My real point in mentioning the church on Easter thing is to offer up some proof that I was not raised as an atheist. I have been subjected to hours long protestant services by a parent who really does believe in the guy with the white beard. (God's still a white guy with a white beard, right? We haven't switched to a more politically correct Asian-God-in-wheelchair model while I wasn't paying attention?)
The first sign that I wasn't totally hip to the deity jive came when I was about five or six. I remember playing outside with my friends Krista and Kyle Kettering who lived up the street from me. Their mom taught at Dayton Christian middle school (I think, my 6-year-old memory might be a little fuzzy on some of the finer details) and they believed in god and Jesus and the whole works. I don't know how the subject came up, but we were talking about Jesus and the virgin birth, you know, like kids do. I have vague memories of my mom reading to me from a children's bible when I was really little. I can see some of the pictures in my mind. I remember the Garden of Eden, the flood, and the Tower of Babel. I don't know that we made it much further than that. I'm thinking we definitely didn't make it to the New Testament, because I had some rather heretical things to say about how Jesus came on the scene. "So, Jesus' mom was Mary and Jesus' dad was God, so Mary and god were married." I don't remember how they told me I was wrong, and I don't remember how I responded to their correction, but I think it must have been the 6-year-old equivalent of, "What the fuck?!" By the time we finished our argument, the only thing the three of us could agree on was the fact that Jesus had come out of Mary's butt. At some point my mom was informed that the Kettering kids couldn't play with me anymore. I don't remember whether or not this was related to my heathenism, but let's pretend that it was, because I think this Mary and god were married debate can turn into a pretty badass chapter in the biography that someone will write about me hundreds of years from now as a result of my single-handedly turning the world away from religion and toward a peaceful coexistence. Or not. I don't really care if you believe in god or not. Whatever gets you through the night. Just try not to be an asshole about, and try to encourage other people not to be assholes about it either. See? Peaceful coexistence. I'm sure my Nobel is on the way.
The first time I remember flat out telling someone that I didn't believe in god was third grade. I was talking to my strict Southern Baptist best friend at the time, Joseph S. I have no idea what I said other than that I didn't believe in god and I thought it was foolish that he did. Whatever I said, it must not have made much of a mark; he lists the Bible twice in his list of favorite books on Facebook and Jesus Christ first (four places ahead of Reagan) in his list of influential people. The Joseph S. phone incident was a full 3 years before I was injected with the ego boosting shot of pretty much limitless power that my promotion to safety patrol captain gave me.
One afternoon when one of my fifth grade underlings, Shane M. and I were walking back into the school after a successful shift of life saving, we were talking about god. I had formed real opinions and thoughts based on logic by this point. It was a major step in my intellectual growth. I know this sounds like I think pretty highly of myself, but let me follow-up by saying that my opinions and my ability to argue on this topic have not matured or expanded one iota since that spring 18 years ago. But back to my conversation with Shane M. "Just because we haven't found all the answers through science doesn't mean the answers don't exist. Religion is just ignorance settling on an answer," I told him. I have no idea what he said to that. It's hard to listen to other people when you're too busy being impressed with yourself. Remember that thing I said a couple paragraphs ago about not being an asshole about your faith? That goes for atheists too. I was a real schmuck when I was twelve. In case you were wondering, according to Shane's Facebook page, he still believes in god too. Good for him.
As I said, I haven't come up with any sounder arguments against the existence of god since I was twelve. I'm sure if I'd read more of what Richard Dawkins or Christopher Hitchens had to say on this matter, I'd be further along argumentative education, but the truth is, I don't go out of my way to read books or essays that try to disprove the existence of god. I may not be any good at convincing other people not to believe, but I think I've pretty well mastered my own disbelief, so why spend the time? Something I do spend time on though is reading collections of essays written by people who I think are funny, skilled writers (something I clearly haven't mastered as proven by this essay). Well, sometimes when you're looking for one thing, you find something else just as valuable. A few weeks ago, I read Penn Jillette's new book, God, No! Signs You May Already Be an Atheist and Other Magical Tales. I will say that the title was the first thing to catch my interest, but the reason I bought the book was that as I was standing in the book store reading the books introduction I noticed the strength of Jillette's voice. He writes like he talks, which is something I try to do, and he's funny, which is something that I try to be. I thought maybe I could learn something from this guy. I was right, but what I learned had nothing to do with being a better writer (no offense Mr. Jilliette). No, what I walked away with after reading page 129 of Penn Jillette's book was the best argument against god I've ever heard. Here's the quote:
There is no god, and that's the simple truth. If every trace of any single religion were wiped out
and nothing were passed on, it would never be created exactly that way again. there might be
some other nonsense in its place, but not that exact nonsense. If all of science were wiped out,
it would still be true and someone would find a way to figure it all out again.
As my dear mother, the same woman who baptized me in our bathtub with holy water she stole from the hospital chapel, says "Well shit twice and fall back in it." That's a pretty fucking solid argument. I'm sure, for those who believe, there are arguments against the aforementioned, but I'm not going to go out of my way to think of what those arguments would be. In fact, I think I'm set on reasoning against the existence of god for another 18 years. But I'm still not proud of the way I talked to Shane M. that day after we'd finished our safety patrol shift.
You could say that I let my position as safety patrol captain go to my head. You could say that it ws inappropriate for me to use my position of authority to try to sway the beliefs of my subordinates, but let me just leave you with one last story.
School had just let out, and all the kids who lived within a safe mile of the building were anxious to get home. Students walked along the quiet suburban streets with nary a care in the world. Students, that is, except for me and the rest of my force. I was standing on the corner of Carnation Street and Palm Drive, proudly wearing my glow-in-the-dark sash when a small group of kids walked up behind me. They were chatting amongst themselves, paying no attention to the traffic situation around them, but so what--that's why I was there. From my left, a car approached. I held my flag/dowel rod in width-wise in front of my waist and gave the command, "HOLD!" The kids walking behind me didn't stop, but neither did the car. When the first girl in the group ran into my outstretched dowel rod, so firm that the rod broke against the force of her forward momentum. She stopped, unharmed, just as the car passed.
Maybe there is a god after all.
Though it didn't come up during my interview for the post, I think on some level I believed that my atheism would make me a better captain. My firm conviction that there would be no power higher than myself intervening should a first-grader walking home dart into oncoming traffic gave me the feeling of (dare I say godlike) omnipotence that all power-starved-dictators need to posses in order to keep their people safe (under control/completely dependent upon them). I'm not saying that my inclinations toward control-freakism are caused by my disbelief in god. I'm just saying it's a little easier to not feel like a dick for being a control freak if you believe the buck stops with you anyway. Margaret Atwood would be better at explaining what I'm trying to say, but I don't know if she ever used her position of power and influence as safety patrol captain to try and convert people away from Christianity, so you're stuck with me for this blog post anyway.
I was raised as one of those people who only go to church on on Easter. I don't know if the once a year on Easter thing was an attempt on my father's part to affirm his Christian faith or if it was just that he wanted to make it crystal clear that he wasn't Jewish. I mean, as holidays go, it doesn't get much less Jewish than Easter. We'll save how wonderfully open minded and accepting of people not like himself my father is for another post. My real point in mentioning the church on Easter thing is to offer up some proof that I was not raised as an atheist. I have been subjected to hours long protestant services by a parent who really does believe in the guy with the white beard. (God's still a white guy with a white beard, right? We haven't switched to a more politically correct Asian-God-in-wheelchair model while I wasn't paying attention?)
The first time I remember flat out telling someone that I didn't believe in god was third grade. I was talking to my strict Southern Baptist best friend at the time, Joseph S. I have no idea what I said other than that I didn't believe in god and I thought it was foolish that he did. Whatever I said, it must not have made much of a mark; he lists the Bible twice in his list of favorite books on Facebook and Jesus Christ first (four places ahead of Reagan) in his list of influential people. The Joseph S. phone incident was a full 3 years before I was injected with the ego boosting shot of pretty much limitless power that my promotion to safety patrol captain gave me.
One afternoon when one of my fifth grade underlings, Shane M. and I were walking back into the school after a successful shift of life saving, we were talking about god. I had formed real opinions and thoughts based on logic by this point. It was a major step in my intellectual growth. I know this sounds like I think pretty highly of myself, but let me follow-up by saying that my opinions and my ability to argue on this topic have not matured or expanded one iota since that spring 18 years ago. But back to my conversation with Shane M. "Just because we haven't found all the answers through science doesn't mean the answers don't exist. Religion is just ignorance settling on an answer," I told him. I have no idea what he said to that. It's hard to listen to other people when you're too busy being impressed with yourself. Remember that thing I said a couple paragraphs ago about not being an asshole about your faith? That goes for atheists too. I was a real schmuck when I was twelve. In case you were wondering, according to Shane's Facebook page, he still believes in god too. Good for him.
As I said, I haven't come up with any sounder arguments against the existence of god since I was twelve. I'm sure if I'd read more of what Richard Dawkins or Christopher Hitchens had to say on this matter, I'd be further along argumentative education, but the truth is, I don't go out of my way to read books or essays that try to disprove the existence of god. I may not be any good at convincing other people not to believe, but I think I've pretty well mastered my own disbelief, so why spend the time? Something I do spend time on though is reading collections of essays written by people who I think are funny, skilled writers (something I clearly haven't mastered as proven by this essay). Well, sometimes when you're looking for one thing, you find something else just as valuable. A few weeks ago, I read Penn Jillette's new book, God, No! Signs You May Already Be an Atheist and Other Magical Tales. I will say that the title was the first thing to catch my interest, but the reason I bought the book was that as I was standing in the book store reading the books introduction I noticed the strength of Jillette's voice. He writes like he talks, which is something I try to do, and he's funny, which is something that I try to be. I thought maybe I could learn something from this guy. I was right, but what I learned had nothing to do with being a better writer (no offense Mr. Jilliette). No, what I walked away with after reading page 129 of Penn Jillette's book was the best argument against god I've ever heard. Here's the quote:
There is no god, and that's the simple truth. If every trace of any single religion were wiped out
and nothing were passed on, it would never be created exactly that way again. there might be
some other nonsense in its place, but not that exact nonsense. If all of science were wiped out,
it would still be true and someone would find a way to figure it all out again.
As my dear mother, the same woman who baptized me in our bathtub with holy water she stole from the hospital chapel, says "Well shit twice and fall back in it." That's a pretty fucking solid argument. I'm sure, for those who believe, there are arguments against the aforementioned, but I'm not going to go out of my way to think of what those arguments would be. In fact, I think I'm set on reasoning against the existence of god for another 18 years. But I'm still not proud of the way I talked to Shane M. that day after we'd finished our safety patrol shift.
You could say that I let my position as safety patrol captain go to my head. You could say that it ws inappropriate for me to use my position of authority to try to sway the beliefs of my subordinates, but let me just leave you with one last story.
School had just let out, and all the kids who lived within a safe mile of the building were anxious to get home. Students walked along the quiet suburban streets with nary a care in the world. Students, that is, except for me and the rest of my force. I was standing on the corner of Carnation Street and Palm Drive, proudly wearing my glow-in-the-dark sash when a small group of kids walked up behind me. They were chatting amongst themselves, paying no attention to the traffic situation around them, but so what--that's why I was there. From my left, a car approached. I held my flag/dowel rod in width-wise in front of my waist and gave the command, "HOLD!" The kids walking behind me didn't stop, but neither did the car. When the first girl in the group ran into my outstretched dowel rod, so firm that the rod broke against the force of her forward momentum. She stopped, unharmed, just as the car passed.
Maybe there is a god after all.
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